Now What do I do?

So much has happened and I sure could use your ear. Dave bought a new truck which is fine but he still hasn't gotten rid of the other thing so it's hanging around. It's so annoying. I don't feel well and would love to just complain. I. I. I. Since you've been gone I keep thinking about how this affects me. I worry about the kids (who are all now grown up) and mom and your husband; but when I cry, it's for me. My life is forever changed. It's bullshit. The things I want to talk about are insignificant, meaningless. Yet you're not there and I feel so alone. I don't know how well thought out this plan of His was; but I gotta figure it out. What should I do now?