I MISS MY SISTER

I miss my sister all the time.  Sometimes it gets worse than others.  Tonight was one of those times.  I was sitting here looking at pictures of my son's wedding and BAM!  it slammed me right in the heart.  These times are getting more infrequent; but the severity hasn't decreased.  How long?  Damn it's seven and a half months. 

It's my cousin's birthday today.  He lives in NY and we don't talk all that often.  I sent him a text wishing him a happy birthday and happened to read back over our previous messages.  They went back to the time before my sister passed away.  Then they were of updates on her condition, then the notification.  It tore my heart out to read; and yet I couldn't stop.  I want some tangible sign that she's here with me.  I want to know that SHE knows.  Where the hell is she??

My son was married on Saturday (see previous post); and Cheryl was Mark's godmother.  She was so excited for his wedding, as we all were.  After the wedding we were taking pictures at the reception venue when my mom called out to me to say Cheryl was there.

Cheryl loved butterflies.  I like to think she was there wishing the newlyweds well, showing her love.

xoxo